There are girls you drink fondly to remember. There are girls you punish your liver to forget. There are girls you drink with. And then there are girls you drink because you are with them. This was one of those dates. Right off the bat, I met her via Match.com, and should have been prepared for it, but God damn was Elise pretty to look at. Five eight, dirty blonde, and two pallid green worlds centering her face. I would have told her my name was Cash Bundren, but that was the problem with Elise, she was well read. She was the kind of well read that likes to shove it in your face. She also thought she was well read in people. I don’t fancy myself the most complicated of sorts, but I don’t think she can readily assume I drink heavily from order two Makers on the rocks in the span of three or so hours.
I couldn’t tell if her looking every which was in the bar was ADD, disinterest, boredom, a ernest desire to people watch, or an unholy amalgam of all of those. But we were talking, and all of a sudden she goes, “So talk.” I just look at her long and silent. “Isn’t that what we were doing.” I can think of nothing more inducing of silence as to say, let alone command, the verb talk. She’d talk her job, she’d name check some authors to convince me that she was well versed, but I can’t really call a lot of what we were doing as human communication. It was vapid, and it was hollow. She was looking every which way, and I was looking to the bottom of the glass.
*rolls on the floor laughing…takes a break to take the inhaler…and then resumes again*
Anyways, The movies supposed to be hitting Majestic at the start of Jan, must go watch this nonsense… Only for Jacob of course. Hehehe *sparkley eyed!*
A good end for a hard week of school
Soon I am going out with my man Hitch to down some brewskies, though I have been excericising for the past 15 minutes nonstop but now that´ll all be for nothing, hu hu…
Tomorrow I am having a long awaited Star Wars marathon with my friend Lucien, we are going to watch all 6 movies, along with drinks and snax, it is gonna be loads of fun ^^
Speaking of Star wars, and seeing as it is christmas soon; what i would really love for xmas is a Star wars t shirt! Just look at these cool ones! Just watched the finale of Idol Sweden…and it is so embarrassing ow low the quality of Swedish talent is…its really shameful when compared to the elite like in American Idol, it seems everone there has the superstar potential over there, no matter which competition it is…but the thing about sweden is that they dont understand how pathetic and untalented they, they just really TRY to make a big ordeal of things, try to make things look really cool that it overshines the quality of the performers… Urgh, I just sit and think….” What da fuck is this SHIT????” Nobody seems to realize the stupidity of Swedish idol, Sweden got talent and all that…
-Time to wake up!
Just compare these two winners from previous seasons…I wonder if you can see the difference????
Swedish Idol sucks monkeydonkey cocks rubbed in bullshit, smuthered with tutti frutti sprinkles!
OH how wonderful is this that i fuck my daughter and she does me. She is so wonderful. Her nice young tongue goes deep in my pussy and ass and she fucks it so good and hard. Missy is my apple of my eye. Her nice perky tits are to be felt nice and easy. she took a dildo and rammed it into my pussy deep and hard. Not only did it feel good but i cam so hard. OMG if you want a wild one try us. We can get you a nice special. You wont go wrong. LOVE MOMMY MONIQUE
This posting has been in my draft folder for about a week and I finally have a chance to complete it and post it. My apologies.
The words “It’s Over!” carried through the house! I told her that we should separate! The insecurities and the accusations have finally overflowed! I am not going to live with and be married to someone that doesn’t trust me, doesn’t believe me and I damn sure have no trust or belief in anything she tells me. She says she loves me but yet in the same breath tells me that I am cheating on her and I am not telling her the truth!
I have devoted 14 years to this woman. 2 years of asking her to go out with me. almost 12 years of marriage. Not once did I stray! Not once did I do anything to break any trust or the ability to believe what I say! Yes! I said I think it would be a good idea to separate! Her comeback: “I’m not gonna comeback to you after you go out and have your fun and screw around.” WTF??? In my mind, a separation was a chance for both parties to be away from each other so they could think about things. Life. Marriage. What they wanted. Etc. Apparently I was wrong. Apparently (according to her) it a chance for me to go out a screw around and not feel guilty!
This choice was not one that was easy to be made. This choice was a difficult choice because of my 2 girls (7 and 11). I have always had the interest of my kids at heart. I don’t care what happens to me, as long as they are not hurt or effected. They need to be happy. Although in a time like this, it’s a little harder but all I can do is try to make it easier and listen and talk to them. This is not a easy time for them. It sucked for my brother and I when my parents went through it. I can understand what and how and all the feelings that come along with it. I just want to be there for them!
So my marriage is all but over. She is staying through the holidays and then she is out! She keeps at me about everything! I am starting over too! I am keeping the house that I have been paying for by myself for the past 3 years! I am keeping my car! The only other thing I would argue would be the TV and my PS3. Come on! The kids are already a given!
She can whatever else she wants to take. beds, furniture, etc. She keeps telling me, “This is what you want.” I don’t ever recall uttering the words divorce! My words were separate! She took the next route and then tells me, “I will not be keeping your name, I will go back to my maiden and I am going to be filing bankruptcy I can put the car on there so if anything happens they cannot touch it. My credit sucks, I have nothing but the girls and I will be starting from scratch.”
So what am to come back with? Good Luck?? I dunno. My first marriage, my wife left in the middle of the day after almost 1 year of marriage. She wanted to go back to being a whore! Yes, I was crushed! Yes, I cried for weeks! I eventually got over it and moved on! This marriage is ending after 11 (almost 12) years! Will I be crushed? I don’t think so. I think I am almost ready for it to happen and be over with. It’s not even worth me doing anything else to even try. The trust is gone. The love is gone. The disgust is here. From BOTH sides.
I will keep on. I will be here! I will be happy again!
Hopefully I won’t feel the need to post anymore about this subject. That’s another reason for the title! next will be more uplifting, positive, happy posts!!!!
